Bullying... When I hear the word bully, I automatically think of that middle school girl, sitting in the school bathroom stall eating her lunch. Tears streaming down her face at the very thought of having to face the wall of girls eagerly awaiting the lashing they are about to serve. Unfortunately to some, it is simply a part of their journey. Knowing that it will eventually pass, that once you "grow up", this will be but a memory, gives the strength needed to persevere. What you don't expect or consider is the fact that not everyone grows out of their behavior. Not everyone turns into a decent human being as they age. Why is it that there are people that seem to thrive off the pain of others.? What is it that makes a human being believe they are somehow better than others? That they have a right to tear another person down? Is that the only way they feel empowered? Why are there those that seem to fall in line with this ridiculous behavior? As a 48 year old woman in the midst of "yet another" do over, I find myself in an environment surrounded by "those" girls. The pretentious, hypocritical, narcissistic, type of human being that in one moment tells anyone that will listen about God and prayer, about how to be a generally good person. The expert right? Wrong. In the next moment they are abusing, physically, emotionally, verbally, and spiritually, every one in their path. I don't have the answers for the why'? I can't understand it myself. All I know is that when it is all said and done who I have to live with is me. I am responsible for how I act and react to all situations. So with this moment of clarity, I am reminded that I am no less of a human being than the next person. I am no less deserving of both respect and the good coming my way. I am reminded that my future is still bright and my life is worthy. I am worthy. Other peoples' opinions of me are none of my business. What truly matters is what I think of me and how I treat myself and others. Sometimes it helps to simply vent. Never give negativity the place and time to grow. Don't buy into the bull shit. We are all FABULOUS!
